Friday, February 25, 2005

Blogger Deadbeat

I have not blogged nearly as much as I would like to lately. Exam in A&P, two quizzes in Pharmacology, another exam coming up for Nutrition, then another in A&P and Pharm again, etcetera, etcetera.... very, very busy. Barely keeping up but getting there. I keep reminding myself that nobody said it would be easy.

A good friend said my picture of Jerry was disturbing. Had to think about it, but that time was disturbing. If the picture communicates that then I think maybe that is ok. It was taken three months before his death. I think he looks wistful, maybe a little sad, but at peace with his fate. The weekend I took the picture he was more lucid than he had been in several weeks. We went to Key West. We had some great talks. Anyone who has dealt with someone they love with dementia knows how fleeting and precious those moments of lucidity can be. It was the last time I saw him when he was mostly "himself". No, thats not quite right. He was always essentially "himself". Even when the brain tumor put him in diapers and robbed him of his mind bit by bit. He was always there, somehow. Communicating was just harder. Some moments were good some bad. No thats wrong too. Not bad exactly. He was still here and I could still comfort him and be with him. I guess it's selfish but that is better to me than him being gone. So, yeah, the picture is disturbing. But not nearly as fucking disturbing as the fact that I will never hug him again. Shit. That sucks. It just sucks.

Saturday, February 12, 2005

Jerry FantasyFest 10/31/99 Posted by Hello

Another person I miss. Got a new scanner - here is a picture of Jerry, I was playing with the watercolor filter in Photoshop and I like how it came out.

Missing People and Places

Missing both an adjective and a verb. My little brother Sean in happier times. I found this picture interesting (ironic, sad?) since both he and the twin towers are gone. He in 1996 at 16 and the towers five years later in 2001 when he would have been 21. I'm not sure exactly when this was taken. It's on the Brooklyn Bridge and he couldn't have been more than about 3 so let's say around 1982. Posted by Hello

Saturday, February 05, 2005

A pensive creature Posted by Hello

Leeloo, My little Genius Posted by Hello

Birdie Genius

I knew it!!! Birds are much smarter than people give them credit for:

The New York Times > Science > Minds of Their Own: Birds Gain Respect